oooooooooooh.

i am watching buffy as i type...

hanging out with kari and krisan all night. :)

frustratingly confused.

yesterday my little brother turned 18! gah! crazzzzzzzy.

i've had a great summer so far. i looooove kari and krisan and hanging out with them is so much fun. girl talk. working out. epic walks. chicago <--which we need to do more! i wish i had more money. ha
however, something in my life is missing. i don't really know what it is. i really want to travel around. i want to see california and new york and texas and and washington and georgia (you know why) and more of tennessee.
also, i need a loan from someone. i don't know what to do. i need $350 by june 4th! and i can't get that on my own. fuck. i don't want to ask my mom because she keeps complaining about how stressed out she is and i don't want to add to that. if i don't get the money then i can't sign up for my classes until after freshmen do, which means i will not get into classes i need to be in.
i need to stop being lazy too. i have projects that i want to get done this summer and if i keep watching the view and tyra every day and sitting on my computer for hours and hours; i won't get them done.

i need to clear my head and figure out exactly what i want right now.

yadda yadda yadda.

i am getting worse and worse at posting.

last night i accompanied krisan, kari and tammi to chicago so that krisan could see the features (damn 21+ shows). it was lots of fun, we need to go up to chicago more often to explore new places.
today the four of us visited mr. masty. we are going again tomorrow for a little bit. it will probably be the last time we ever see him because he is retiring. :( we also went to dunkin donuts.
i had the worst conversation with my mother. we talked about my brother being a shithead, then why he has been being a shithead, then about my jerk father. then later about my grandmother's cremation plans (she is not close to death...), next my great aunts are mad at each other, finally ending with my oldest great aunt's awful life. (seriously the poor woman has had a horrible time).
luckily the day ended well, kari and i worked out then watched some buffy. -angel is hot!-

one-eighty.

yesterday i was very disappointed with a certain someone. but sometimes...they surprise you. i am so grateful he isn't as ridiculous and self-obsessed as i thought he was.

he really cares. :)

melt.

the show was soooo good.

first of all, we got there at 5ish and aimee bought the LAST ticket available. crazy huh? then we walked around and sat in line and were freeeeezing cold. they let us in about 10 minutes late. the first band was okay. the horrors were amazing. i liked them before but now i am in love with them. plus, they are sooooooo beautiful. oh and i got the setlist. :)
the kills were absolutely fucking amazing. they blew my mind. allison fucking stared me down during the second song (which i didn't know the lyrics too). she got 5 inches away from my face, singing. then we both started laughing, i didn't know what to do. i was a little stunned. i am such a fan girl. gah! she is crazy, dancing all over the place. they are soooooo good, i can't even explain it.

more later. soooo tired, and going to steak and shake in 10 minutes, ugh. it best be a good night.

after the show i made aimee wait so i could meet allison. i ended up meeting most of the horrors and both of the kills. she was last, i shook her hand and told her the show was amazing and that she was really awesome. i'm a loser. basically.

breakage.

i finished my english final last night at 9:30 and then went to see kari. :)

it is summer and i'm about to leave to go see the kills and the horrors! i am excited.

finale finale the finale finale.

This week has been all finals. uggggh. it almost sucked me dry. Yesterday/today =lots of packing. Today (Friday) is move out day. I also have to finish up a take home english final...at least get parts of it done so I don't have to do too much at home. :\ Should get back to that instead of blogging but this the last post ever from a dorm room!!!

good bye residence halls, i will not miss you. your fattening food and your disgusting communal bathrooms and your ignorant noisy freshmen. wont miss it a bit.

ps grey's was AMAZING tonight. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

pps there is a thunderstorm outside right now. i hope it is still storming when i go to sleep. :)

hatred.

fuck drama. can i have all my friends be boys? not that that would solve all of my problems but seriously, girls suck! why does this happen?

i need to get out of here. i started packing just to make myself feel better. i finally switched my major the other day. i'm officially a psych major now! YES!