hopeful or pathetic?

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i am so goddamn full of hope!
i am hopeful that sonia will not have to work and we can go see the whigs next friday!!!!!
i am hopeful that i see aj this weekend.
i am hopeful that i will be able to pull off a 3.0 GPA this semester.
i am hopeful that i will get my act together and start going to class again.
i am hopeful that i don't fail my two exams next week.
i am hopeful that i run into boy sometime within the next few days.
i am hopeful that he likes me.
i am hopeful that i can at some point learn how to balance fun and school.

maybe i'm just lame. maybe i'm lazy. fuck, maybe i am a ...

i'm fucking scared that none of these things (above) will happen and i'll be a failure.

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